I do not understand if I’m overthinking or if I am truly an unlikable individual. I attempt to be an excellent individual as well as a close friend to everybody I satisfy. The trouble is that I’m exceptionally scheduled and also have actually been significantly distressed for many years. I do not understand exactly how to mingle extremely well however I’m constantly pleasant as well as attempt to hold respectable discussions.
I seem like I am phony though. I do not act the exact same around colleagues/ colleagues as I do around household or individuals that recognize me well. I obtained a brand-new work over the summer season as well as chose to develop a Facebook account to include my colleagues as well as close friends I’ve made at my old task, so we can remain in touch. They made use of to message me as well as wish to prepare lunch and also supper days till I began uploading memes as well as “amusing things” (as foolish as this appears, bear with me).
I seem like I have actually constantly had a strange funny bone. I such as silly things that a great deal of individuals (household, buddies) do not locate amusing. It is simply meaningless wit I’ve expanded to appreciate for many years. Foolish memes and/or “shitposts”. Often I will certainly reveal individuals things as well as they’ll make a face and also state they do not obtain it. My guy of 8 years tolerates it and also a few of right stuff he in fact discovers wit in – yet at the end of the day I ask myself, why do I similar to this things? I have actually uploaded a great deal of “stupid” meaningless (not troublesome) photos as well as memes on my account as well as no one communicates with me any longer. All 22 of my friends/coworkers, that intended to hang out at some factor, have actually deserted ship I think. I seem like sharing right stuff that I locate wit and also favorable satisfaction in has actually made individuals assume I’m strange or premature.
I’m simply depressing. I seem like I have no one as well as I have not seemed like or socially approved in a while. I would certainly such as to have the ability to be my enjoyable outbound self with individuals however I seem like I normally drive individuals away; my ironical and also unusual funny bone being a lot of the issue.
I simply really feel omitted in life each time I would love to make some pals however me, normally being that I am, is a social turn-off. Individuals most likely believe I’m not that I appear I am.
Tl; dr – I seem like I am a social castaway with my individuality/ wit being a significant contributing aspect
I really feel like I am phony. I really feel like I have actually constantly had an unusual feeling of wit. I really feel like I have no one and also I have not really felt suched as or socially approved in a while. I simply really feel left out in life at a time I would certainly such as to make some buddies however me, normally being that I am, is a social turn-off.